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Journal Entry: Thu Dec 10, 2009, 3:14 PM
So I just wanted to start off by saying I am finally going to start updating my online comic as regularly as I can.

You can find it here: [link] :3

And now on to more series matters.

For the longest time I have been at war with myself on whether I want to pursue my love for writing or my love for art. Both I dabble in from time to time and both would be nice to have a bachelors degree in but I really needed to buckle down and pick one to major in before it became too late.

See, I have always considered the bachelors in English a smarter idea. It’s a practical and versatile degree that you can do a lot with. It’s very sensible and safe and what I have spent the last couple of years gearing towards. But it’s not really what I want.

Sure I love writing, sure it’d be nice to have a degree in it but it isn’t my passion.. It’s practical. For so long I’ve been avoiding doing what I really want to do because it’s not practical and I don’t have a fall back plan. Truth be known I have been living on my own for 7 years now and haven’t had any parental support in just as long. College is something I have had to pay for on my own, work for all on my own, while juggling a job and other living expenses.  There was no room for impracticality and whimsical desires when it came to higher education. Simply space big enough to get the degree that earns the most money.

Honestly, I considered an art degree a luxury granted to those who have support (read: those who live at home or have their parents paying for everything or both), not someone like me.

However, as time goes on and I begin to become more pensive about my life and what time remains left in it, I realize that if I don’t go for what I really want, I’ll regret it forever. It’s not practical.  It’s not stable. It’s not even really a safe degree option for someone like me but.. It will make me immensely happy. I actually have the drive to take more classes than I can realistically handle, I have the drive to work hard and finish my degree because I want to and not because I NEED to.

So why am I sharing all this dribble with the rest of you? Well, the moral of these ponderings and life altering decisions is happiness.  

See, the point to life (if there IS such a thing) is to really LIVE and be -happy-.

Riches and material objects (in the long run) mean so very little. In fact, at the end of this life when you’re looking back at everything you’ve done, the only thing that will have ever mattered was if you were happy and the good and full life you have led.  

I believe that when we pass on, the only things we can carry with us onto our next journey are the things we cannot touch or see but merely feel. Things like our memories, our happiness, our sorrow.. Our existence.  Because, in my belief system, our existence is the only thing that transcends death and the only thing that makes us who we are and what we are remembered by.

So when it‘s my time, I want to look back at my life and be proud of it. I want to be satisfied that I did what I wanted to do and that I did it well.  So here’s to a step in the right direction ^_^

And as for everyone else, let’s hold our chins up high and change the world into a better place so we can all continue to smile together until the very end  : )

Raven

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~saiyanzrepublik Dec 31, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh man, this entry is just so awesome and true and touching. :D I am in the same state right now, and heck having to put the bread on the table and still do what you love at the same time is just not that easy.

It sucks that in today's world everything is pretty much money money, but hell, money still can NEVER buy love and affection and anything like that, cuz it's just priceless. :)

Sometimes I just wish that money will rain down for artists so we can really pursue our passions and goals, ya know? :XD:

Thanks so much for this inspirational read! :D
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:iconcynicalpuppeteer:
Kyaa, you've made me want to draw again. XD I took a two year absence and read this awhile ago, then drew a few pictures since. lol. I need to re-learn a lot of things, and learn how to paint/shade. :S Taking two years off can do that to you . . . heh heh. But I'm persuing my dream to being a novelist, but I think I'd want to do something with art too. :O Maybe work at an art gallery or something fun like that. Writing and Art have always been my two main loves/passion/dream. X3 I used to draw manga too. I don't anymore and probably won't again but I'd like to continue drawing anyway. I've forgotten how much I loved it.

Thanks for that inspiration. ;3

<3
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:iconxharlequinn:
You only have a single life, why waste it by being unhappy, even if it means more money and less hardship?
I'm majoring in art and have no family to back me up, and I love what I do more than words can say. if the passion's not there, don't waste your time with unhappiness C:
And contrary to popular belief, there are more jobs you can get with an artists' degree than you think.
Good luck, love!
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:iconrobertdbrown:
~RobertDBrown Dec 17, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Damn, it took me years to get to where you are now in that regard. Now I'm jealous, haha. ;)
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:iconantiquity-dreams:
Lol I have lived a very... full life. Being sick all the time with a questionable amount of time on my head makes it so i really come to terms with myself and focus hard on the things I want. ^^;
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:iconrobertdbrown:
~RobertDBrown Dec 16, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
When I was 12, I told my mom I wanted to draw monsters when I grew up.

In high school, the meager few and frightening minutes of advice that the career counselor gave me, was to try to steer the entire rest of my life in a ';practical matter' and join the Air Force, become a trucker, or a fire fighter..


..To them, monster drawing was not an option.


Somewhere along the line, the message gets lost to live without regret. The world wants us to lose heart, to lose path most meant for us. It is too easy to not believe in yourself nowadays. Don't fall into that trap. They are your dreams, if you don't protect them who will?

It does not matter how nice your 'stuff' is, if you live a life of regret. Believe me, the longest most terrible day of being what you love, is better than the best day of being who you aren't.


...and right the very second, I am getting paid to draw a monster ;).








There is a hitch...

There is no middle of the road if you follow your dream. It takes more work and energy. You can never sell yourself or your effort short. There is more pressure, tears and pain when you are actually doing what you are meant for and every moment counts.

But I am sure you already know this =).
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:iconantiquity-dreams:
Thank you, your comment was very encouraging and gives me a little hope for the future ^_^
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:iconrobertdbrown:
~RobertDBrown Dec 17, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
I truly hope you follow your dreams.

The work I have seen you do, is the work of a highly talented, creative, and perceptive person. There are so many different avenues for your future, theater, film production, graphics, storytelling, teaching, talent production, fashion, styling, acting, window dressing, and all sorts of different design paths.

A lot of young artists don't realize there is an absolute perfect spot for their particular talent set. Don't be afraid to take time [it took me a couple years] discovering your artistic path. Not all of them are obvious.
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:iconantiquity-dreams:
Lol oh trust me, I know where my talents lay and what I want to do with them. The main problem I was having was A) accepting that what I want to do is what I should aim for. B) narrowing down which field I want to develop for myself. There are several avenues I could invest my time into but few I have a passion for. I've done a lot and seen a lot in my time so I have a very focused perception of my future lol
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:iconpringlebunny:
it's funny that you say English is the more viable option, because i'm a graduating English major and i still get those looks from everyone. that "what are you going to do? are you teaching? all you can do is teach you know. hope you like kids! >.>"

i really feel like i could do anything i wanted, with any major. i mean, i feel like if you are smart, charming and capable, you can do whatever you'd like.

i'm actually applying for the JET program to teach abroad and then who the hell knows. you can do the same. your job can only make you so happy, anyway. really, it's the life outside of your career, your rich personal life that makes it all worth while.
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