So I just wanted to start off by saying I am finally going to start updating my online comic as regularly as I can.
You can find it here: malefactor.comicgenesis.com/
And now on to more series matters.
For the longest time I have been at war with myself on whether I want to pursue my love for writing or my love for art. Both I dabble in from time to time and both would be nice to have a bachelors degree in but I really needed to buckle down and pick one to major in before it became too late.
See, I have always considered the bachelors in English a smarter idea. Its a practical and versatile degree that you can do a lot with. Its very sensible and safe and what I have spent the last couple of years gearing towards. But its not really what I want.
Sure I love writing, sure itd be nice to have a degree in it but it isnt my passion.. Its practical. For so long Ive been avoiding doing what I really want to do because its not practical and I dont have a fall back plan. Truth be known I have been living on my own for 7 years now and havent had any parental support in just as long. College is something I have had to pay for on my own, work for all on my own, while juggling a job and other living expenses. There was no room for impracticality and whimsical desires when it came to higher education. Simply space big enough to get the degree that earns the most money.
Honestly, I considered an art degree a luxury granted to those who have support (read: those who live at home or have their parents paying for everything or both), not someone like me.
However, as time goes on and I begin to become more pensive about my life and what time remains left in it, I realize that if I dont go for what I really want, Ill regret it forever. Its not practical. Its not stable. Its not even really a safe degree option for someone like me but.. It will make me immensely happy. I actually have the drive to take more classes than I can realistically handle, I have the drive to work hard and finish my degree because I want to and not because I NEED to.
So why am I sharing all this dribble with the rest of you? Well, the moral of these ponderings and life altering decisions is happiness.
See, the point to life (if there IS such a thing) is to really LIVE and be -happy-.
Riches and material objects (in the long run) mean so very little. In fact, at the end of this life when youre looking back at everything youve done, the only thing that will have ever mattered was if you were happy and the good and full life you have led.
I believe that when we pass on, the only things we can carry with us onto our next journey are the things we cannot touch or see but merely feel. Things like our memories, our happiness, our sorrow.. Our existence. Because, in my belief system, our existence is the only thing that transcends death and the only thing that makes us who we are and what we are remembered by.
So when its my time, I want to look back at my life and be proud of it. I want to be satisfied that I did what I wanted to do and that I did it well. So heres to a step in the right direction ^_^
And as for everyone else, lets hold our chins up high and change the world into a better place so we can all continue to smile together until the very end : )
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